I think right now I’m afraid to live life to the fullest.

And the thing that’s holding me back is that the last time I had everything going well, and my whole being was ignited with life. I was so full of energy and love and peace. I was really content with who I was. And then something happened and everything went wrong. And I couldn’t control it. And now I’m afraid. I’m afraid of losing control. I’m afraid of losing that place of peace. And I’m afraid I’ll never find it again. I don’t know what to do. I’m so paralyzed with fear I can’t even move. I don’t know what to do. If I should act or if I need more time to heal my wounds and rest. And essentially cower in fear so I can feel some semblance of wholeness. Some feeling of security and safety that I lost a long time ago.

19th May 2012 | 1 note

This one’s for the torn down
The experts at the fall
Come on friends get up now
You’re not alone at all

10th May 2012 | 3 notes